Tinkerbelle

[Tess]

Sleep peacefully my little one..you earned your wings, you'll be forever in my heart.


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Baby mine, don't you cry.
Baby mine, dry your eyes.
Rest your head close to my heart,
never to part,
baby of mine.

Little one when you play,
don't you mind what they say.
Let those eyes sparkle and shine,
never a tear,
baby of mine.

If they knew sweet little you
they'd end up loving you too.
All of those people who scold you
what they'd give just for the right to hold you.

From your head down to your toes,
you're not much, goodness knows.
But you're so precious to me,
sweet as can be,
baby of mine.

If they knew sweet little you,
they'd end up loving you too.
All those same people who scold you,
what they'd give just for the right to hold you.

From your head down to your toes
you're not much, goodness knows.
But you're so precious to me,
sweet as can be,
baby of mine.
Baby of mine

[Deb]

Oh god no...Tess, I'm so, so sorry :(

[ctcgirl]

I am so sorry for your loss of your baby....what a beauty forever in your heart

[Les Shaw]

So sorry to hear , my thoughts are with you ..

[Neal]

So sorry Tess!
Neal.

[Mindcore]

So young, only 12 years old like one of my babies. So very sorry for your loss, Tess. :(

[Buka12]

so sorry to hear about your lose...I know you adored her...and I feel your pain.

[debbie]

Sad news. :(

RIP Tinkerbelle.

[ted]

Very very sorry Tess. I know no words can help at this point but althought she's gone remember she will ALWAYS be with you in your heart.

[Andromeda]

Very sorry to hear of your loss Tess. They become part of your life and you never forget them. I know my life was richer for having my 'furpeople', and you feel so terribly sad when they are no longer with you. :(

[spaminator]

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[dbusguy]

So sorry Tess :( She's at peace now and you'll never loose your memories with her. I always loved her eyes. You take care.

[Tess]

Thank you so much everyone for your kind words. It's been a rough road, and she fought the good fight. Unfortunately it got bigger than her, it had to be done, although reluctantly, as I absolutely did not want her to suffer in any way, when I felt that her quality of life was threatened I knew I had no choice but to do what was best for her even though I struggled with it . I miss her so much already..and although I do have three others, I've always had this special connection with her and her to me..that isnt quite the same with the others..she was one in a million.

As a note to other pet owners..be vigilant, ignore nothing..she presented with a tiny bit of blood from one of her nostrils..then nothing for months I thought that maybe she had scratched herself..as it turned out when it happened again a few months later, I took her to her vet and through tests, and blood work plus a needle biopsy, it was determined she had a thinning of the bone and a fast growing tumour way up in her nose. I was referred to specialists who wanted $5,000.00 just to diagnose her, through a rhinoscopy and a CT Scan. This would be just a diagnosis, as there was no 'cure' they could only give her a little more time and comfort. I couldnt see the point of that, so let her determine what would take place next. Perhaps if I had addressed the tiny bit of blood immediately things might have turned out differently, but I honestly dont think so.

Towards the end, she began to struggle for breath and it was time the relieve her, she passed peacefully in my arms yesterday at noon, in her home, with the assistance of her wonderful and amazingly compassionate vet. We wrapped her in her own blanket and waited until I felt I could let her go..then he took her.

Give your babies a hug for Tinkerbelle and I.

Again thank you all for your kind comments..it is appreciated and it does help.

[ctcgirl]

I can't stop the tears from flowing...beautiful and very peacefull you have a special vet for her to come to your home where you tinkerbelle felt the most comfortable...bless you Tess

[Tess]

I can't stop the tears from flowing...beautiful and very peacefull you have a special vet for her to come to your home where you tinkerbelle felt the most comfortable...bless you Tess

I wrote that through tears, I cant seem to stop either, ..and he was absolutely wonderful he took excellent care of her always.

Thank you CTC. :het:

[BillD]

My condolences, Tess. I know how hard it is.

[sparky77]

So sorry for your loss Tess.... losing a fur baby is never easy. Tinkerbell is now free from pain and hopefully frolicking at the Rainbow Bridge (http://rainbowsbridge.com/Poem.htm).

[Swordfish]

I am sorry for your Loss Tess please accept my condolences I know how hard it is to say goodbye to a pet you love very much.

[spaminator]

Thank you so much everyone for your kind words. It's been a rough road, and she fought the good fight. Unfortunately it got bigger than her, it had to be done, although reluctantly, as I absolutely did not want her to suffer in any way, when I felt that her quality of life was threatened I knew I had no choice but to do what was best for her even though I struggled with it . I miss her so much already..and although I do have three others, I've always had this special connection with her and her to me..that isnt quite the same with the others..she was one in a million.

As a note to other pet owners..be vigilant, ignore nothing..she presented with a tiny bit of blood from one of her nostrils..then nothing for months I thought that maybe she had scratched herself..as it turned out when it happened again a few months later, I took her to her vet and through tests, and blood work plus a needle biopsy, it was determined she had a thinning of the bone and a fast growing tumour way up in her nose. I was referred to specialists who wanted $5,000.00 just to diagnose her, through a rhinoscopy and a CT Scan. This would be just a diagnosis, as there was no 'cure' they could only give her a little more time and comfort. I couldnt see the point of that, so let her determine what would take place next. Perhaps if I had addressed the tiny bit of blood immediately things might have turned out differently, but I honestly dont think so.

Towards the end, she began to struggle for breath and it was time the relieve her, she passed peacefully in my arms yesterday at noon, in her home, with the assistance of her wonderful and amazingly compassionate vet. We wrapped her in her own blanket and waited until I felt I could let her go..then he took her.

Give your babies a hug for Tinkerbelle and I.

Again thank you all for your kind comments..it is appreciated and it does help.is there cat insurance?:confused:

[Tess]

My condolences, Tess. I know how hard it is.


So sorry for your loss Tess.... losing a fur baby is never easy. Tinkerbell is now free from pain and hopefully frolicking at the Rainbow Bridge (http://rainbowsbridge.com/Poem.htm).


I am sorry for your Loss Tess please accept my condolences I know how hard it is to say goodbye to a pet you love very much.

Thank you for your kind words.

It seems harder today, I guess it's hitting home, gathering up her things and whatnot..I find myself still looking for her.

[Tess]

is there cat insurance?:confused:

Good question.

There is insurance, however she was 12, ideally to cover an older cat, even a cat with any medical history regardless of age, as soon as the issues arise the cost is very high. When I got them all, I had just lost a pet I'd had for even longer..with no medical issues til the end..I cant work on 'if only' because I dont think in the long run it would have made a difference..the vet told me after surgery was not an option. As it was, she had over $1200. worth of tests, the additional $5k, would have been for a diagnosis only, as it was not treatable, that did not make sense to me to pursue it. Her breeder tells me, typically cats she breeds live on average between 13 and 17 years of age, so we got close.

And the last time I explored that possibility, it was upwards of $40. per cat per month (and I have four all around 12 y.o.) ..if you do the math..and considering only certain things can be covered..hardly worth it. 4 x $40. per month x 12 + $1,920.00 per year for four of them. Really not a bargain, to me anyway.

[Mindcore]

I have also heard horror stories about claiming pet insurance. I even know an employee of one pet insurance company that had to sue her own employer for denying her pet's claim!

Regardless, I think in this case, as you said Tess, it was diagnosis only and she was suffering. As hard as it is, you did what was right by her. Doesn't make it any easier. I grieve with you. :(

[Cidknee]

Im sorry for your loss Tess,

And there has been a few news reports about people who have pet insurance ( the ones I heard were in the UK) of people getting put in jail for pet insurance fraud. I am not sure if I could go for pet insurance.

Now I am in NO way saying you would do that Tess, just one of the news stories I heard. I know its not easy nor will it be for a long time...but she is in a better place.

[Buka12]

and not suffering..................

I got an old neighbor, her dog is 20 years old, so sick, blind, can hardly walk, don't eat right..in pain..but she keeps him. poor dog, I feel so sorry for him. she said to me: I know I should put him down but...

[Tess]

I have also heard horror stories about claiming pet insurance. I even know an employee of one pet insurance company that had to sue her own employer for denying her pet's claim!

Regardless, I think in this case, as you said Tess, it was diagnosis only and she was suffering. As hard as it is, you did what was right by her. Doesn't make it any easier. I grieve with you. :(

Had I had insurance for all of them I would have spent far more than I did..If I had opted for the big diagnosis confirmation, it would not have bought her any time or significant quality of life..really and honestly it did not make sense at all.

She was not in pain per se, but on Friday, the tumor got big enough to restrict her airway to the point that she was struggling for breath and starting to breathe through her mouth, which we all know is not natural for cats..in my heart I know there was no pain, I watched her like a hawk, however the discomfort became intense was something I was not about to ignore. So I consulted with her vet one last time, explored if there were any options, and there were none. The appointment was made for the next day at noon.

Thank you, grieving is terrible..I am having difficulty wrapping my head around it, I guess I need time.


Im sorry for your loss Tess,

And there has been a few news reports about people who have pet insurance ( the ones I heard were in the UK) of people getting put in jail for pet insurance fraud. I am not sure if I could go for pet insurance.

Now I am in NO way saying you would do that Tess, just one of the news stories I heard. I know its not easy nor will it be for a long time...but she is in a better place.

I believe you're right, there was nothing more for her comfort here..I know she is at peace.


and not suffering..................

I got an old neighbor, her dog is 20 years old, so sick, blind, can hardly walk, don't eat right..in pain..but she keeps him. poor dog, I feel so sorry for him. she said to me: I know I should put him down but...

My main priority in her care, once I was sure it was inevitable, was that she not suffer at all. Keeping her here for no other reason than for myself was not going to happen. Her welfare was the priority I let her determine when by herself and she didnt let me down.

What your neighbour is doing with that is animal cruelty in my books, and should be reported to the Humane Society. Period.

[Buka12]

I know Tess, she is 89 years old, I'm leaving her alone, she knows she has to put him down, and yes, I do feel sorry for her little dog, but I'm sure she will do something soon.

[Mindcore]

Had I had insurance for all of them I would have spent far more than I did..If I had opted for the big diagnosis confirmation, it would not have bought her any time or significant quality of life..really and honestly it did not make sense at all.

She was not in pain per se, but on Friday, the tumor got big enough to restrict her airway to the point that she was struggling for breath and starting to breathe through her mouth, which we all know is not natural for cats..in my heart I know there was no pain, I watched her like a hawk, however the discomfort became intense was something I was not about to ignore. So I consulted with her vet one last time, explored if there were any options, and there were none. The appointment was made for the next day at noon.

Thank you, grieving is terrible..I am having difficulty wrapping my head around it, I guess I need time.



I know the feeling. I went through it last year when my one girl was diagnosed with diabetes. The blood tests, the insulin shots, 4 trips to emergency when she went into insulin shock. $3,000 later, and so much more wiser to the proper feeding of my feline friends, she is insulin free (for over a year) and right as rain. She's my 12 year-old I mentioned earlier. I have no kids so my two furballs are my "daughters" and I love them dearly. I know that sickening feeling in your heart when they are ill or in pain and you want to do what's best but dread the thought of saying good-bye.

I smothered both my girls with love yesterday and said a quiet prayer for your beautiful Tinkerbelle. Time will heal your broken heart but it won't take away your memories.

[spaminator]

I know the feeling. I went through it last year when my one girl was diagnosed with diabetes. The blood tests, the insulin shots, 4 trips to emergency when she went into insulin shock. $3,000 later, and so much more wiser to the proper feeding of my feline friends, she is insulin free (for over a year) and right as rain. She's my 12 year-old I mentioned earlier. I have no kids so my two furballs are my "daughters" and I love them dearly. I know that sickening feeling in your heart when they are ill or in pain and you want to do what's best but dread the thought of saying good-bye.

I smothered both my girls with love yesterday and said a quiet prayer for your beautiful Tinkerbelle. Time will heal your broken heart but it won't take away your memories.i thought that diabetes was a human disease.:confused: i didn't know that cats could get it.:(

[Tess]

I know the feeling. I went through it last year when my one girl was diagnosed with diabetes. The blood tests, the insulin shots, 4 trips to emergency when she went into insulin shock. $3,000 later, and so much more wiser to the proper feeding of my feline friends, she is insulin free (for over a year) and right as rain. She's my 12 year-old I mentioned earlier. I have no kids so my two furballs are my "daughters" and I love them dearly. I know that sickening feeling in your heart when they are ill or in pain and you want to do what's best but dread the thought of saying good-bye.

I smothered both my girls with love yesterday and said a quiet prayer for your beautiful Tinkerbelle. Time will heal your broken heart but it won't take away your memories.

I absolutely would have done the same if I was given hope for Tinkerbelle, without question.

I am in the same position, no kids, they are it.

That feeling is the most horrible feeling in dealing with their illnesses, but sadly it's inevitable.

In my opinion, in the end though it's a small price to pay for the years of happiness and companionship they bring you.

Thank you for that, she was much loved by pretty much anyone that came across her in one way or another. I have thousands of pictures and wonderful memories of her...to keep forever.

Something I wanted to mention, I have three others..Kewpie is Tinkerbelle's half sister, and 11 years old..she's pretty much lived her life in Tinkerbelle's shadow, as she was the alpha. Since Tinkerbelle has been absent, Kewpie has more or less stepped up, and filled in some where Tinkerbelle left off..which I find a remarkable turn.

[Mindcore]

I'm sure you will notice changes in your other cats. They are probably in some sort of mourning as well and learning to adjust with Tinkerbelle gone. It's nice that Kewpie is a half sister. That means there is still a small part of Tinkerbelle around then.

I know the day will come when I have to say good-bye to my girls. Like you, lots of pictures, video, and (my friends think I'm bizarre; their probably right!) I save their whiskers when they fall out when I find them. Each one has a distinct colouring so I know which cat they came from. Kinauvit's are pure white and Cleo's alway have about 1/8" of the root black and then the rest is white. Crazy, I know, but it's a physical piece of them I'll have always. At least I'm not saving their claw clippings! LOL.

[Tess]

I'm sure you will notice changes in your other cats. They are probably in some sort of mourning as well and learning to adjust with Tinkerbelle gone. It's nice that Kewpie is a half sister. That means there is still a small part of Tinkerbelle around then.

I know the day will come when I have to say good-bye to my girls. Like you, lots of pictures, video, and (my friends think I'm bizarre; their probably right!) I save their whiskers when they fall out when I find them. Each one has a distinct colouring so I know which cat they came from. Kinauvit's are pure white and Cleo's alway have about 1/8" of the root black and then the rest is white. Crazy, I know, but it's a physical piece of them I'll have always. At least I'm not saving their claw clippings! LOL.

So true, I think Spike is looking for her or waiting for her, he's been sleeping in one of her closed in beds, which he avoided while she was here..:) Tinkerbelle used to be the one asking for dinner..the rest followed..now Kewpie has taken up that role. The natural order has changed.

I clipped some of her fur, I have it in a music box that plays the song from above..Baby Mine. I will be getting her ashes back, which I will take with me when I go..just because that's what I want..I understand completely, and if you're crazy so am I. ;)

[Mindcore]

So true, I think Spike is looking for her or waiting for her, he's been sleeping in one of her closed in beds, which he avoided while she was here..:) Tinkerbelle used to be the one asking for dinner..the rest followed..now Kewpie has taken up that role. The natural order has changed.

I clipped some of her fur, I have it in a music box that plays the song from above..Baby Mine. I will be getting her ashes back, which I will take with me when I go..just because that's what I want..I understand completely, and if you're crazy so am I. ;)

We are of the same cloth, Tess. Kinauvit is my cat and my cat alone. I've had her since she was a stray kitten and she is a one human cat. She tolerates other people but won't let them close (lots of hissing, growling, and sometimes spitting and spraying). My ex-wife could never really pet her and neither can my roommate or any other person who has crossed her path. I'm the begin all and end all for her. I've always been told that I'm not allowed to die before her because she won't go near anyone else. When she passes, I will do the same as you, save her ashes and have them put with mine when my time comes. I think it's only fitting for the close bond her and I have shared all these years. I still love my Cleo as well, she's an amazing cat, but there was some special connection between Kinauvit and I when I found her and brought her home all those years ago.

[Buka12]

Losing a pet is just as hard as losing a human loved one, both are part the family, it's hard.

[tweakthis]

Sorry for your loss, Tess. Tinkerbelle was a lovely cat.

[Tess]

Sorry for your loss, Tess. Tinkerbelle was a lovely cat.

Thank you.

[smirnoff]

Iam so sorry Tess its always bad when family dies and they where family.:(

You where there when she needed you most and she knew it.

Iam sure Tinkerbelle let Kewpie knew that her time was limited and she was going to have to be there for you.

I have two of my own doc and playdoe (wanted to name them pinky and the brain but someone wouldn't let me...lol) who are presently sitting in the doorway .staring at me..always seem to know when i am emotional.

We are all here if you need to talk or just to listen!

[Tess]

Iam so sorry Tess its always bad when family dies and they where family.:(

You where there when she needed you most and she knew it.

Iam sure Tinkerbelle let Kewpie knew that her time was limited and she was going to have to be there for you.

I have two of my own doc and playdoe (wanted to name them pinky and the brain but someone wouldn't let me...lol) who are presently sitting in the doorway .staring at me..always seem to know when i am emotional.

We are all here if you need to talk or just to listen!

Thank you for everything..I do think they pick up your feelings..and react.

It's incredible the void they leave, even when there are other furkids in the house..They all have their specific purrsonalities and she had a huge one, she ruled the pack and they knew it.

I miss her terribly still.

[Mindcore]

Thank you for everything..I do think they pick up your feelings..and react.

It's incredible the void they leave, even when there are other furkids in the house..They all have their specific purrsonalities and she had a huge one, she ruled the pack and they knew it.

I miss her terribly still.

I know what you mean by "purrsonality"! Each cat is so unique. That's what cat owners, err, cat maids, know. No cat could replace your Tinkerbelle as I'm sure she was one of a kind. Stay strong. It will get better and the memories will always live with you. I really hope there is something more after our own deaths and that we do meet with our lost loved ones (both 4-legged and 2-legged) again. http://elouai.com/images/yahoo/51.gif

[Tess]

I know what you mean by "purrsonality"! Each cat is so unique. That's what cat owners, err, cat maids, know. No cat could replace your Tinkerbelle as I'm sure she was one of a kind. Stay strong. It will get better and the memories will always live with you. I really hope there is something more after our own deaths and that we do meet with our lost loved ones (both 4-legged and 2-legged) again. http://elouai.com/images/yahoo/51.gif

I'm tryin'! Thanks for the encouragement..I slide back every once in awhile..I find myself out of habit I guess..still looking for her. I just looked at one of my memory cards, preparing to file and then make a drive backup..and whoa...I made sure that they're filed for when I choose to see them next.

It would be nice, pretty much everyone is already there, from my immediate family, they all left early..I'm the straggler. ;)